So here I am…

So here I am... I am brushing my teeth and spitting into my empty coffee cup.
I am about to get to drive... so close. Just a few more hours and Im set.
There is so much more in my life now more than ever... alright. So the past few weeks I
have been hanging out with these amazing guys. I am fully in love with all of them as people.
But, it would be insane not to admit to likeing one... but even more crazy not to admit likeing
four.
   One of them has been wanting to date me for two years. He recently asked me out...
again and I said maybe within a week but until then we need to talk and stuff. That night
he had sex with a an 8th grade slut in the closet while tripping on cough syrup. I forgave
him way too easily.
   The next has a girlfriend but he speaks poetry. He words drip with color they bleed straight
into my spine where they will never leave. He's beautiful and I dont know how I have never
noticed him before.
   The last is a player. I do not think it will work.. but he too is amazing in every way
and we always have so much fun together.
Help me please?

Thats the Way We Get By

Alright, I do, whole heartedly apologize for not writing in forever... but I have good reason.
Honest.
So the past few days, I havent been home for more than 15 hours at a time.. and that means
sleep.
 I have been haning
out with really nice guys... but there is still drama-rama. My best friend, Spice, got
screwed over and so did I. I dont know...
right now I am just taking a break from guys. I mean yeah they are cute, and I would love
to have one but not having one doesnt kill me. I mean I kind of adore this guy, Dann. But
its alright.
Btw, Frathon broke my heart.
Alright, awesome story time..
Last night I snuck out of a school night with my best friend. my mom and brother were
 still in the kitchen. I ran down the stairs and hid in the car stock. I waited for them
to talk. I ran passed them into a bathroom which led outside. Once outside I ran tried to
 get through the fence. The fence wouldnt open, so I literally jumped over mine. All of
 this while my family was unaware of the after dark festivities. So now, here I am.
Up all night long at the guys house. 7:01 and getting ready for school. haha oh what a life.
Thats the way we get by.
   -jane